As I sit here in this coffee shop, sipping on a delish hot chocolate with cream and sprinkles on top (don’t judge), I think about how the past year has changed for me.
The big theme has been endings; ending of a job and relationship that I was unprepared for. Ending of a way of life. Ending of plans and dreams that were in the pipeline, some that will never see the light of day. The end of what I thought was suppose to be my next career. This life.
A lot has happened and trust me when I say it has been rough, painful and downright hellish. I won’t sit here and tell you that after the pain there are rainbows and I’m brimming with joy. I am going to be authentic and say that maybe there are rainbows for some but, for me that’s not how it is right now. What I would say is that, I am starting to feel a trickle of hope and possibility. To me that’s a miracle because for awhile I didn’t have any hope. I’ve been in the trenches and the only way out is for me to keep going. To be honest with myself and how I feel.
Life has it’s challenges and sometimes it can hit you with so many major curve balls all at once, that you can’t see or feel anything but the pain.
Writing this has made me think about all of you out there who are going through your own version of hell and I want you to know that I get it and I am with you. I am with you in the pits whilst you’re going through it. I am there and so are lots of other people. So don’t feel like you’re alone. Some of us, Warriors of the Trenches, our lights have started to flicker on bit by bit. Use those flickers as a sign that yours will soon start to flicker and blaze bright.
Know that you’re not alone and you’re not lost.